Renjana

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renjana/ren·ja·na/ n rasa hati yang kuat (rindu, cinta kasih, berahi, dan sebagainya)

Yang saya pikirkan ketika membayangkan renjana adalah kerinduan. Kerinduan akan masa-masa sebelum memiliki anak. Masa sebelum saya terjun bebas dalam arena yang disebut motherhood.

Masa dimana saya bisa bepergian dengan santai bersama suami, kapan pun, kemana pun.

Masa dimana kami bisa berkencan, menikmati saat romantis berdua.

Masa dimana saya bisa duduk tenang membaca komik, serta memantau linimasa Facebook dan Instagram.

Masa dimana saya bisa maraton serial TV favorit, anime kesayangan, atau menonton film terbaru di bioskop.

Masa dimana saya bisa menghabiskan waktu hingga 45 menit untuk mandi dan berdandan untuk sekedar makan-makan cantik di mall terdekat.

Masa dimana saya bisa mengobrol dan tertawa lepas dengan teman, kapan pun, dimana pun, hingga jam berapa pun.

Masa dimana saya bisa menghabiskan banyak waktu memanjakan diri dan berleha-leha.

I miss those times because I cherish my younger days and I am proud that I have lived well. 

However, I don’t want to go back if that means I have to lose this cute little-mess, my own cute little-mess.

Also, I don’t want to go back and lose this stronger and wiser version of myself, the one with upgraded capabilities such as:

  • multi-tasking
  • able to operate with just 4 hours of interrupted sleep
  • a little more than so-so cooking skill
  •  new-found crave to learn a lot of new things regarding little human
  • finding peace with not achieving nonsense and impractical high standards of pretty much everything

This little human also the sole motivation of me joining such a great and positive community which is Ibu Profesional. ♥

And, who can resist this beautiful smile I got to see every single day since this little chubby fluffy snuggly creature came along. Yeah, I mean the baby, not the teddy bear.

 

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No matter how I miss good ol’ days, I have embraced and cherished what I have now and full of expectation of what’s round the corner for the three of us.

#Writober #Tema4 #Renjana
#RBMIpJakarta
#ibuprofesionaljakarta

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